For the past few months I have been feeling a lot happier than usual. I remember the day that the sense of unhappiness (well not really unhappiness) was lifted. As most of you know I love telling stories so here goes one.
After a four days of preparing to lead high school students in a 3 week Pre-AP Prep Course in Biology I felt like doing this.
and this during a staff meeting discussing the upcoming weeks.
Actually I thought I may have done this with a few choice words when people started laughing at some comments I made that I felt strongly about. I tell you I was stressed after that meeting but I came to terms that there was nothing I could do but face the funk on Monday. Saturday I was no longer nervous or anxious about that next week.
I really enjoyed the students and the program. I will be the first to admit that I didn't think it would work and my reputation with high school students hasn't been that great in the past ( apost about that will come). However, this experience was delightful. I just spoke with one of the students last night. Even though I wasn't able to help the students with biology, calculus, or chemistry,(that's where the frustration came from. I know my strong points and tutoring anything besides life skills isn't one.) I think I was able to make a small impact.
Oh, and I almost forgot to mention that I also enjoyed my time with my co-workers. We had not had the opportunity to work with each other that much. There were some bumps in the road but overall I enjoyed hanging out with them at work. (I still wasn't that interested in hanging out with everyone outside of work though.)
Anyway, since that episode in my life I have had nothing but good days. No feelings of personal stress or loneliness. Don't get me wrong, there is still a lot of mess going on in my life and around me, however, it is not getting me down. I have a new attitude. I hope it last.
With that new friendly and happy attitude I need some motivation to study for that darn GRE test. I finally registered y'all! (HOLD THE PHONE!! I thought y'all was spelled ya'll, thank you spell check!) It just took me six months. Heck, maybe it was a year. You know how I do.
I think happiness can boil down to a pure choice, whether or not you really want to be happy. When I get down or bored, I think of all the blessings I take for granted and the good traits and goals I want to focus on achieving. Some people choose to enjoy their gifts and others choose to complain and not experience the day that can't be taken back. We all have issues but how you handle those issues and work on overcoming speaks volumes about your character and fortitude.
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